Friday, September 27, 2013

Pain And Guilt

.The last 3 and half years I have been eaten up with pain and guilt. Today is a real bad day. I feel I should have been able to do SOMETHING to have prevented Chris death. Maybe it was a mistake letting him be put on a ventilator. Would his body fought the infection more? I love him so much. Did I do all I could? I j ust want to hold him in my arms and tell him how much I love him.. DEATH SUCKS1


RCUBEs said...

It is the faithful and sacrificial love of a mother that still resides in your heart. I pray though that God will continue to comfort your pain. God bless sister.

The Real Cie said...

Wanda, I can tell you as a nurse that agreeing to have Chris put on the ventilator made no difference in his being able to fight the infection. If anything, it was a measure that might have helped him be able to fight by helping him breathe when he was unable to do so for himself.
Yes, death does suck. I would like to kick it square in the nether regions.

Nikki (Sarah) said...

Hey's been awhile. I'm sorry you feel the way you do.....I wish for you it hadn't happened. But something I've always seen in you....a courage to push forward. Here in your corner.