Monday, November 26, 2012

Intrusive Thoughts Haunt Me

Intrusive thoughts are unwelcome involuntary thoughts, images, or unpleasant ideas that may become obsessions, are upsetting or distressing, and can be difficult to manage or eliminate.[1] When they are associated with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), depression, body dysmorphic disorder (BDD), and sometimes attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), the thoughts may become paralyzing, anxiety-provoking, or persistent. Intrusive thoughts may also be associated with episodic memory, unwanted worries or memories from OCD,[2] posttraumatic stress disorder, other anxiety disorders, eating disorders, or psychosis.[3] According to Lee Baer (a specialist at the OCD clinic of Massachusetts General Hospital), intrusive thoughts, urges, and images are of inappropriate things at inappropriate times, usually falling into three categories: "inappropriate aggressive thoughts, inappropriate sexual thoughts, or blasphemous religious thoughts

Intrusive thoughts seem to haunt me. When my depression is out of control I seemed to be over run by intrusive thoughts. They are so disturbing and freighting. I try to control them but they are over powering.  They are very self destructive. They cause a lot of distress. I am working in therapy to try to overcome these impulses. The thoughts are so demanding, demanding an action. The thoughts are violent in nature. They frighten me. I think something is majorly wrong with me.

6 comments:

Chatty Crone said...

Oh gosh Wanda I was hoping things were better for you. I hate this. I hope it helps to talk to your therapist. Love and hugs your way. sandie

rcubes said...

I pray you will overcome...

Denise said...

I am truly sorry, saying prayers for you.

Jane said...

Hi, I strongly believe that we are stronger than our thoughts. I haven't experienced exactly what you are going through, but I also face depression and intrusive thoughts at certain times. When I do, I pray and have a conversation with God. It helps feel at ease and have hope for better days. I will pray for you as well.

Sarah (Nikki) said...

Wanda I read your post...my heart broke for you. I wish you didn't have to go through all this. I struggled for so long wondering why He let me go through the darkness I did and for so long. Today I believe it's b/c I can speak to people with an understanding...an inside knowing. Stay strong special Bud....praying for you.....

Jackie said...

Oh my Wanda I don't know if you will even remember me. But I use to go by the nick name Shinade and I authored the blog The Painted Veil.

I too have PTSD, Chronic Anxiety and I am Manic/Depressive and I am an Agoraphobic!

I know the suffering way too well. I will keep you in my thoughts and my prayers.

I have been blessed these last few years. But until I found just the right DR. I suffered for years and years!!

I think I too am much like Sarah. I went through years of suffering so that I could fully understand and hopefully speak out about these issues!!

God bless and hang in!! I hope the darkness lifts soon. I use to call it my dark pit. It always felt so good when I could finally get out of the dark hole!!

Praying for you!
Jackie:-)