Please Pray

This is Wanda's friend, Peggikaye. She just called me to tell me that her son, Chris, passed away today.
He'd gotten a cold, then it went to pneumonia and then septicemia (sp?). He coded today and didn't make it.

She's going to let me know the details of his funeral. I'll post more when I know more if she doesn't have the chance or feel up to posting.

Update

I'm sorry I haven't felt like blogging. My doctor wanted to admit me today, but she giving the medication a few more days to kick in. It took every bit of strength I had to go to my psychiatrist. I am really not doing well. Thank you so much for checking in on me. I know I will cycle through this, but it is so hard.

One Hour at aTime

Sometimes one day at a time is more than we can handle. Right now it is one hour at a time. I have to tell myself I can do this with God's help one hour at a time. I really don't know why I am struggling so much right now, but I am. I have to make myself get out of bed and take care of the basics. I do believe it will get better. It is even hard to breath right now. I'm leaning on my faith and friends on line right now. I am hoping for a better tomorrow. With God all things are possible.

Pain

Curled up in a fetal position
Riveted with pain
Overwhelmed with guilt
Covered with shame
Crying for help
Afraid to move
So sick inside
When will it stop
If I'm really still
Maybe he will go away

Feeling Lost

I'm feeling a little lost the last few days. I do so want this new year to be better than last year. I am obsessed with food issues. The purging is not working so now I am trying restricting. The holidays are a bad time for food. I hate this, but it is all I can think about. My therapist is on a leave of absence right now. There are just to many ads on TV about losing weight. I know I need to lose weight. I just hate being obsessed.