I guess I'm just too trusting. I was at a department store yesterday and a clerk told me the price of my bill which I paid in cash. I did not look at the ticket and she charged me $20.00 extra. and pocketed the money. Of course I did not catch it till I got home. I even had a friend with me that heard the clerk do it, but the store would not believe me. It not that $20.00 is a lot of money,but it is just wrong. I live on a fixed income and even if I had lots of money stealing is just something I can't believe someone would do. I guess I'm the biggest goose for being so trusting of people! Lesson learned.
Why do I have to be crazy wild without sleep or some kind of spending spree or in some one face or so low I can't lift my head up??? I just feel like crying my eyes out. I want to talk with some one. I am so lonely. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
This has really been a rough year for me. So many changes, so many loses, so many tears. I have had to see people I really loved and cared about leave. I have had to stop working due to increased health problems. I have had to try to adjust to living on disability. I have found out that you can't trust some people just because they have a title and are suppose to have your best interest at heart. My faith has been shaken but not broken. My heart wounded, but still is beating on. I live through my past, so I will make it now. I know that everything will work out if I continue to do my part and not give up. I am so thankful for all the support everyone gives me.
What a few weeks I have had! I did see my Psychiatrist that started me on Tegretol in addition to my Geodon. It did finally stop the manic episode that lasted 9 days. Unfortunately I had a severe reaction to the medication after about 10 days. Hives, blisters and breathing problems. In fact I still have some of the blisters and looks like burns on my skin from the reaction even though I have been on large amount of steroids (which is already starting the hypo mania again!) Needless to say off the Tegretol and up the Geodon. Anyway I doing a bit better for a little while. We will see what happens next. Thanks for checking in on me!
