I fell yesterday and twisted my left knee. (My better one). Boy am I hurting today. When I feel I knocked over a couch table full of pictures. There was glass everywhere. I had to pick up 4 of the 6 new frames. My kids pictures are very important to me.
Last year Chris wanted me to put up a star trek Christmas tree. I decided on snowmen last year because I wanted a big tree and didn't have enough decorations of star trek for the big tree. How I wished I had put up what he wanted! I never dreamed it would be his last Christmas. As hard as it is going to be I'm putting up a three foot star trek tree this year in his honor.
I am really sad today! It is just getting very close to the Holidays and I'm missing my babies. I wonder what Christmas is like in heaven?
On the brighter side I've been talking to Alice today. I always love to hear her voice. We must look for good in each day and that is what I'm trying to do. I just mailed Alice four of Chris' video games. I used the post office this time.
It's getting cold at night. I hate that I have to run my furnace. I have it set at 65 degrees, so I really bundle up in my blanket. Being bundled up somehow makes me feel safer.
I'm setting here looking at a tapestry throw that is over my lap. I admit I was crying about Chris and feeling I've lost everything, including all my friends. God seemed to say to me "See all the dark threads that are woven in the tapestry and yet it is beautiful. Your life has many, many dark threads, but you are a beautiful life to Me and are not alone."
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Wow. This is a really powerful post. I'm sorry UPS is being so difficult. It sounds like they are trying to take advantage of you and Alice and that is certainly not right. I have a package to mail tomorrow and I was going to ship it UPS, but now that I've heard how they have treated you I will use the post office or FedEx. I'm on your side!
I think it's so nice that you are putting up a Star Trek tree in honor of Chris. I'm sure he would love it. I know I've said this to you before, but I just hope you know how much of a good mother you are. Seriously, you are spectacular. You care about your children in a way that my mom never has. My mom financially supports my recovery, but it seems like the only thing she really does is throw money at the problem. But it sounds like you care for your children in a different way. A better way.
I hope that you feel physically and emotionally better. You are in my thoughts.
Wishing you well,
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I hope the insurance stick to their word,Wanda!
I guess the holiday season do bring both sadness and joy!I hope you and Alice can find strength with each other.Strength to remember Chris with a smile this Christmas!
P.S.I bet Chris would love the tree!
your last few sentences say it all....I believe what you said. Stay strong okay.
Yes, my dear Wanda, our lives are a beautiful tapestry with many different colors of threads, but the end result is beautiful.
Your Star-Trek tree is going to be so special. I take a lesson from this today. You are a good mother. My daughter has been asking me for a particular themed one for years. We have two trees--our regular 7 foot natural one which we go purchase each year and decorate with ornaments that we've collected for over 25 years now, and a small 2-3 foot one which I put in a planter all decorated with Norman Rockwell type vintage ornaments. Our daughter wants to decorate a 101 Dalmatian one which has always been her favorite since she's such a dog lover. She's 17 now and I think this is the year to bring out the dogs!!! If I do, I'll share pictures. Try to take a picture of your Star-Trek tree.
Hope your leg is better and I am praying for that as well as the UPS situation.
One Heart,it is time to bring out the dogs. Enjoy and cherish the tree with your daughter. Chris will look down from Heaven to see his tree!
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