Something Different

Saw my doctor today because I wasn't getting any better. I now have two ear infection and beginning of pneumonia. They are starting me on a high powered antibiotic and watching  me closely. Hopefully this will do it. I am so weak but we are trying to keep me out of the hospital. So many are sick right now. Young people dying. It doesn't make any sense.

Alice is a bit depressed because the financing fell through on her new car.  She is hoping when she get her settlement she will be able to get everything she wants.

I am so tired so I'll write more when I am feeling better.

Day Four

This is my 4th day of not feeling well. I finished 3 days of strong antibiotics The fever is down but the congestion continues. At least it is not the flu! I am so weak but  guess it will get better. I am going to take it easy today and see where we stand tomorrow.

This is a rough time of year for me. It is hard to believe it has almost been four years since Chris died. I miss him so much. I still don't understand why he had to be taken so young. I would have gladly traded places with him. Losing a child takes a deep piece of a Mother's soul. I miss him so much. 

Alice is on cloud nine because she was approved for a new car. I am happy for her but am worried the payment is high. It is such a long term commitment.

This And That

I saw my psychiatrist today and he says I am still hypo manic. That's better than the full blow mania that I have been going through. I have just been so hyper and irritable for so long. It is also so hard to control my spending. I really need to hide my credit cards right now! My psychiatrist increases one of my medications and wants to see me again in 2-3 weeks. That gets so expensive. Right now I am crawling out of my skin.
 I'm fighting the urge to go to the casino or get a half price milk shake. Both very bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow it warming up and we have a 100% chance of rain. Maybe it will wash off some of our ramp. I took a bucket of water an sweep off the porch part today. It still looks nasty but better. I did learn a valuable lesson NOT TO USE KITTY LITTER! It really makes a mess.

The rapid changing weather is playing havoc on my lupus symptoms. It has been several weeks post op from total knee replacement. I am still having a lot of muscle pain and some stiffness'

My sweeper gave up the ghost and stopped working. I had a friend look at it and he pronounced it DOA!
It sure wasn't in the budget especially right after Christmas. I did get a good deal on a Shark vacuum cleaner.  I got it for half price after Christmas sale. It is very light weight and does a good job.

 

A New Year

A New Year is here. Anyone make any resolutions? It is always a good time to reflect on the good, the bad, and how can I make things better. I guess health wise the best thing I did was lose a little weight. Right now I am fighting not to gain it all back. It was a rough year for me in 2013. I am hoping for a better 2014.  Depression is a thief. It steals your joy and energy.

We are in the middle of a deep freeze. It is so cold outside. Our front porch and ramp are frozen solid and we don't own any ice skates. lol We stocked up with groceries before the front came in. We really don't need to get out until Thursday.

I am going to try to be a little better on keeping up on the blogs I follow. Peace to all.

A Wonderful Christmas Eve

Christmas  Eve is winding down. Alice has not changed. She could not wait until tomorrow to open gifts. We had a wonderful time. Our computer is old and slow so I got her a Kindle fire. She now can play her on line game Second Life. She got me a pretty little ring, a necklace, watch, and purse. I made out like a bandit.

We played a game of chess. It has been years since I have played. Must admit I still have the touch. It was a close game but I won. Not bad for a old lady. lol The fudge failed so we are eating it with spoons. Taste great but we won't serve it to our guest tomorrow.

Alice has been baking up a storm. She is a great cook, but clean up is NOT her thing! I guess I am the clean up crew but we are having fun. Tomorrow we are having ham, turkey, and all the fixings. Alice's aunte is coming over for dinner.

May everyone have a blessed Christmas tomorrow. A big HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!

It's Cold Outside

Christmas is fast approaching!  Hours away. We need to start baking pies today. Boy is the house going to smell good. There are a few surprises under the tree.

Wishing all my friends a very Merry Christmas!

 
 

Merry Christmas Chris

Chris,
         Hi baby! This is your third Christmas in Heaven. I can only imagine how beautiful it must be. Alice and I went to see the Christmas lights at Rhema tonight. Do you remember when you were little and tripped over the lights and unplugged them? Today it makes me smile when I think about it. I could feel you watching down on us as we took the drive tonight.
          You always loved Christmas. I have so many beautiful memories of the good times we had! You were a Christmas present shaker always trying to guess what was under the tree. Do you remember me putting canned food in your present to fool you? I have always been a little crazy haven't I? lol
           Alice and I are planning a quite Christmas. Your Aunt Sallie might come for dinner but we are not sure. Dinner will be turkey and the fixing.
            I miss you so much but am so thankful for the 27 years we had. You have given me so many wonderful memories. I just wish I could hug and kiss you again. You keep that computer system in Heaven running smoothly. Until I see you again know that I love you!

Love,
        Little Moma

Friday the 13th And 12 Days To Christmas

What a Friday the 13th it has been in Tulsa. A major water line break downtown has shut down a couple of streets and flooded several business. There was also a train wreck that derailed several cars. It was loaded with new cars! What a mess.

Been wrapping Christmas presents today so it makes the tree look better. I think I have one present under the tree that will surprise Alice. She has really been in the decorating mood this year. We have a tree, a skating rink, an angel, and Victorian lady. Oh I almost forgot the three snowmen.

This time of the year can be hard since I lost Chris. I know he is in heaven watching down on us.
 

Winter Is Here

Broken Arrow has been in a winter storm. We got 6 inches of snow last night compared to Tulsa 4.6.  The bad part is the temperature is going to drop down to 2 degrees tonight. Now that is cold! I am so thankful for my dear friends that had their kids treat our ramp and front porch. The city is doing a good job on the main roads but we live off the beaten track. Some stores are even running out of bread, milk, and eggs!

My knee is getting better. It is still sore. I was hoping by this time it would be better than it is. Alice is cooking right now and we are just taking it easy.

Update

Just checking in with all my friends. I am about 5 weeks post op of my total knee replacement. This time has been much more difficult than the last one. I guess it is my age and the fact the knee was in much worst shape than the first one. My sister in law fell about a week a go and need the same surgery. I will be spending Tuesday in the hospital with her. She is about 9 years older than me so it might be a bit rough.

It is hard to believe Thanksgiving is just around the corner. Alice and I are planning the basic Thanksgiving dinner. We will take a plate to my sister in law since she will be recovering post op.   Most of my family live several states to the north of me. My best friend is planning a big family get together. She is a great cook and so is her daughter. Remember to give thanks.

GLAD IT'S TURKEY DAY!

Scary

This government shut down is getting scary!

I Am Home

I am finally home from the hospital! They had talked about a rehab hospital but I really wanted to go home. I will be having home health come to my house for a while until I am healed better. I am glad the surgery is done. In a few weeks things will even be better,

UGH

I can't do anything simple! I had the surgery on the knee 3 days ago. The feeling has not come back in my leg so I am unable to stand. I have a sever kidney infection that they have called in a specialist for.  am just ready for this to be all over! I will keep everybody updated. Thanks for your support.

Stress

Right now I am feeling quite stressed. The auto accident in April has added a lot of finical stress. I have had a lot of medical bills plus a car payment that I did not have before the accident. I am pulling my hair out of my head.

I am scheduled for surgery on Thursday. There was significant injury from the auto accident plus damage caused by my lupus. They are going to do a total joint replacement. I am hoping this will relive some pain and help my mobility.

What does everyone think about the government shut down. I has been a long time since the last time this happened. I guess I had better finish my grocery list. Take care.

Pain And Guilt

.The last 3 and half years I have been eaten up with pain and guilt. Today is a real bad day. I feel I should have been able to do SOMETHING to have prevented Chris death. Maybe it was a mistake letting him be put on a ventilator. Would his body fought the infection more? I love him so much. Did I do all I could? I j ust want to hold him in my arms and tell him how much I love him.. DEATH SUCKS1

Looking For Energy

I was hoping losing some weight would give me more energy but so far not so. I guess the lupus is just not that well controlled right now. I have been working on reorganizing my kitchen cabinets but can only do a small amount of time because it causes of so much pain in my arms and shoulders. I'm am so short I have to reach for everything!

I saw my psychiatrist today and he said managing my bipolar disorder was like trying to balance a large ball on a thin wire. We both laughed and I told him I was sorry I was such a pain. He reassured me that I was not the problem that my illness was.

Only 2 weeks until my knee surgery. It would be nice to loose a couple more pounds but I am really stuck. I am trying to eat healthy and not some crazy crash diet this time. I know I have lost 1000 lbs in my life!  It was nice to hear from everyone. Take care. 

Been A Long Time

It's been a long time since I have blogged. In fact it has been so long I didn't think I was going to get the account opened!

This has been a summer of health problems. I had several dental issues that were quite expensive. Things are improving in that area now.  About 2 months ago my heart went into an irregular rhythm. I have been seeing a cardiologist who has got things back to normal. I was in a auto accident in April that did significant damage to my left knee. I had not been able to get the knee repair because of the dental and heart issues. Today I have finally got dental and cardiac clearance! Surgery is now scheduled for Oct 3rd. I have been under so much stress they have also been having a hard time with my bipolar disorder. What a roller coaster!

It is amazing how a few minutes can really change so many things in your life. We were hit by an uninsured motorist. It totaled the car and I only had liability insurance on the car. Needless to say the car had to be replaced. Now I have a car payment. Ugh. Medical bills, oh my. I still feel blessed because things could have been much worst.

I have lost 30 lbs which is a good thing. Will talk again soon.
    

My Brain Is Fried

My brain is fried! It just seems like so much is going on. I am keeping super busy but my body is protesting. I can't believe I'm letting stress get the better of me. I'm not sleeping and I think that is part of the problem. I just got to take time to RELAX!

Much different than last Spring we have been getting a fair amount of rain. When it's not raining it is very humid. We have already had several days with heat index of over 100. Thank goodness my air conditioner is working!

I really need to do some laundry. That's a job that is never done. I have also started a project of cleaning out some of my old clothes. I have things I haven't worn in years. 

I will try to do better about blogging and visiting everyone's blog. I will TRY!

Give Thanks

Just want to list some things I'm thankful for.

1. Jesus loves me
2. My family
3. My freinds
4. I was approved for a used car loan
5. My new car gets 30 mile per gallon in city driving
6. I'm losing weight
7. We were safe through all the Oklahoma tornados

Two Months Later

 

Two months later I am still feeling the effects of the automobile accident. The wheel feel off the car. Thank goodness we weren't going too fast! It happened in front of a dealership who actually give me money for a trade in on a used car. A car payment was NOT in the plans! Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do. It's an 09 Hyundai Accent. It would not have been my first choice but it will do. I am still a nervous wreck every time I drive. Two accidents that close together would make anyone nervous.

I had two MRI's this week and both showed damage. My left knee is really messed up and my neck has disc damage.  My doctor said we would discuss surgery at my next appointment. This accident keeps on giving and giving. Funny thing is that I thought the pain I was having was just my "normal" pain.

I have been so hyper and anxious the last several days. My psychiatrist order a lithium  level on me to see if that is OK, Well between PT and my doctors appointments that is all I do.

I really have to be thankful that things were not worst.