I Not Sure What To Do

I'm really not sure what to do. I have been having a lot of pain from my arthritis and lupus syndrome. I am having difficulty walking. My SED rate is very elevated. This measures inflammation. My doctor is talking about starting me on a new drug. The problem is the medication can be dangerous and has a lot of side effects. I know one person on the drug and it makes her very sick the day she takes it. It is only taken one day  a week. The medicine really helps her the rest of the week and she is able to carry on a normal life style. I am not sure it is worth the risks. I see the doctor in a couple of weeks and that is when we will make the decision. I will be praying that I make the right decision.

On another note, my cat had what looked like a tumor growing on his belly. I took him to the vet today to find out it was just a large fat pad. Boy did I feel stupid. We are suppose to slowly cut back the amount of food he eats. He is NOT a happy camper! He cries like a baby for more food and rubs against the cabinet the food is kept in. I guess this will just be a slow project.

I am a little nervous about my therapy appointment this week. I had a lot of intense homework that stirred up a lot of emotions. I do want to heal. I guess anything worth having takes some work and pain to get to the final result.