I find safety in the walls I have built to protect myself. The problem is the walls keep me from experiencing life. I shut myself away to keep from being harmed, but it limits myself to feeling love. Real love is something that always seems right outside my reach. I desperately need it , but am afraid that I will be hurt. Some people in my life looked beyond my walls of protection and reached inside to love me. The only unconditional love I believe I have felt was for my children. I have some wonderful friends that except me with all my flaws. yet I fully don't trust that I will not be hurt. Abuse has caused me to build these walls. Only love can tear them down so I won't be afraid to feel again.
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Huge hugs x x x
I find that a most poignant comment
Tony
One brick at a time...
I can relate so much to this post. When I was in high school I experienced a mass exodus of all of my friends and that HURT A LOT. So now I rarely let anyone past my walls because I never want to experience that hurt again.
But you're right-- love can tear the walls down. And please know that you are loved.
Wishing you well,
NOS
I have come to realize that I will never be able to take down my wall. Too many people have screwed me over too many times. But I try to not completely close myself off. It's a hard balance and in the long run I'm probably not very good at it.
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