Pressure

I have been under so much pressure and stress I feel like I am bursting at the seams! Pressure creates diamonds right?  Just got to keep hanging in there. When I am feeling a bit more sane I will try to visit everybody blog!

 

Happy Birthday Chris

I miss you so much!

Something Different

Saw my doctor today because I wasn't getting any better. I now have two ear infection and beginning of pneumonia. They are starting me on a high powered antibiotic and watching  me closely. Hopefully this will do it. I am so weak but we are trying to keep me out of the hospital. So many are sick right now. Young people dying. It doesn't make any sense.

Alice is a bit depressed because the financing fell through on her new car.  She is hoping when she get her settlement she will be able to get everything she wants.

I am so tired so I'll write more when I am feeling better.

Day Four

This is my 4th day of not feeling well. I finished 3 days of strong antibiotics The fever is down but the congestion continues. At least it is not the flu! I am so weak but  guess it will get better. I am going to take it easy today and see where we stand tomorrow.

This is a rough time of year for me. It is hard to believe it has almost been four years since Chris died. I miss him so much. I still don't understand why he had to be taken so young. I would have gladly traded places with him. Losing a child takes a deep piece of a Mother's soul. I miss him so much. 

Alice is on cloud nine because she was approved for a new car. I am happy for her but am worried the payment is high. It is such a long term commitment.

This And That

I saw my psychiatrist today and he says I am still hypo manic. That's better than the full blow mania that I have been going through. I have just been so hyper and irritable for so long. It is also so hard to control my spending. I really need to hide my credit cards right now! My psychiatrist increases one of my medications and wants to see me again in 2-3 weeks. That gets so expensive. Right now I am crawling out of my skin.
 I'm fighting the urge to go to the casino or get a half price milk shake. Both very bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow it warming up and we have a 100% chance of rain. Maybe it will wash off some of our ramp. I took a bucket of water an sweep off the porch part today. It still looks nasty but better. I did learn a valuable lesson NOT TO USE KITTY LITTER! It really makes a mess.

The rapid changing weather is playing havoc on my lupus symptoms. It has been several weeks post op from total knee replacement. I am still having a lot of muscle pain and some stiffness'

My sweeper gave up the ghost and stopped working. I had a friend look at it and he pronounced it DOA!
It sure wasn't in the budget especially right after Christmas. I did get a good deal on a Shark vacuum cleaner.  I got it for half price after Christmas sale. It is very light weight and does a good job.

 

A New Year

A New Year is here. Anyone make any resolutions? It is always a good time to reflect on the good, the bad, and how can I make things better. I guess health wise the best thing I did was lose a little weight. Right now I am fighting not to gain it all back. It was a rough year for me in 2013. I am hoping for a better 2014.  Depression is a thief. It steals your joy and energy.

We are in the middle of a deep freeze. It is so cold outside. Our front porch and ramp are frozen solid and we don't own any ice skates. lol We stocked up with groceries before the front came in. We really don't need to get out until Thursday.

I am going to try to be a little better on keeping up on the blogs I follow. Peace to all.

A Wonderful Christmas Eve

Christmas  Eve is winding down. Alice has not changed. She could not wait until tomorrow to open gifts. We had a wonderful time. Our computer is old and slow so I got her a Kindle fire. She now can play her on line game Second Life. She got me a pretty little ring, a necklace, watch, and purse. I made out like a bandit.

We played a game of chess. It has been years since I have played. Must admit I still have the touch. It was a close game but I won. Not bad for a old lady. lol The fudge failed so we are eating it with spoons. Taste great but we won't serve it to our guest tomorrow.

Alice has been baking up a storm. She is a great cook, but clean up is NOT her thing! I guess I am the clean up crew but we are having fun. Tomorrow we are having ham, turkey, and all the fixings. Alice's aunte is coming over for dinner.

May everyone have a blessed Christmas tomorrow. A big HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!